Just when I thought I had reached the BEST that GOD had to offer…I just finished a 14 hour…3 day event called KAIROS. The event was held at a campus of our Church and it TRULY ROCKED MY FOUNDATION. Before I tell you about the incredible experience, and DIALOGUE I had with the creator of all…Please let me give you an update on my health condition.
So I had an appointment with the #1 rated Neurosurgeon in Dallas this week. How do I know he is the #1 rated Neurosurgeon in Dallas? Because he had “plaques” of the latest edition of “D” Magazine named this year’s “BEST” of many categories…including medicine.
You would never guess he carried such an accolade…He was very genuine, sincere, and really seemed to care. Did I mention he’s very skilled at what he does? I mean as soon as he walked in the room…I felt that I was in front of a doctor that really knew his stuff.
After a battery of tests, and having the radiologist come to review my CT scan, the doctor came into the room to discuss his opinion.
Right away, he said, “I’ve seen many Syrinx Formations, and if I were you…it would not even be on my radar. Everyone has fluid in their spinal cord…you just have a little extra…let’s monitor it on an annual basis and go from there”.
“WHEWWWW”!!! I thought. I was just told that the scariest part of my medical diagnoses is nothing to be worried about at this time…AND I WAS ON CLOUD NINE!!!
Regarding the “TRI-FECTA” of medical issues…the second…and only remaining tumor, on the right side of my neck…he referred me to an Ear Nose and Throat doctor with a specialty in Head and Neck Surgery. I will be visiting with that doctor next week and will share that update as soon as I have some information.
Now…back to the really good stuff…The magic!!!
KAIROS was the name of the event. The word is of Ancient Greek origin and means “THE RIGHT OR OPORTUNE” moment. It’s an undefined period of time where some “SPECIAL THINGS” happen…and boy did they.
This is going to be extremely hard for me…How am I going to explain some of the events without blowing my top? I really want to share some of the details…but how do you explain the unexplainable? I think I’ll just tell you about a “FEW MOMENTS” I had and then answer questions or give additional information…such as contact info…website etc…to those that request it. By the way…do yourself and your family a favor…request it!!!
So day one of the event was Thursday October 14, 2010 from 6 pm to 9 pm. It started out as some really intense worship and something FELT really different. Let me point out that I was raised in a Church of God family…so I thought I had seen it all…Maybe seen…but I had not felt it all…because something FELT different than any other worship service I’d been a part of.
It didn’t take long for me to realize what that feeling was…It was Christ!!! I’m sure it was impossible for anyone to be in that room without FEELING him…
The event of KAIROS has a “KINGDOM” approach to teaching. This is defined as looking at every aspect of our life and comparing it what our life would be like in the KINGDOM of GOD. I think that’s a good definition…Funny… it’s just so difficult to describe.
So…it has a “KINGDOM” approach to teaching. Well…what is being taught you ask?… here goes-
1. Appetite for the Eternal
2. Establishing Identity
3. Hearing and seeing GOD
4. Grace and receiving FORGIVENESS (One of my favorite sections)
5. Healing in worship (Did you know the translation of worship actually means to BOW)
6. Generational Iniquity and Bloodline Curses (Are there horrible patterns in your family’s history? Good chance you may have a Generational Iniquity or Bloodline Curse…yes, they are both very real)
7. Breaking Soul Ties (Each time we have a relationship with someone…they take a little of us and we take a little of them…before long…we have very little to give the one we love the most. This was a very moving segment for me.)
8. Living without Regret.
9. Judgments and Inner Vows (Man…our thoughts and words are so powerful…I never thought a judgment could do so much damage to my soul…this was very eye opening for me.)
10. Shame (Result of Judgment made against ourselves)
11. Freedom through Forgiveness (I was blown away that there is defined process to this and how easy it is on paper…but absolutely one of the trickiest things to do. You can think you are in the clear…but be far from receiving FORGIVNESS from the lord yourself… think about it...if FORGIVENESS comes from CHRIST and we are unable to pass it along to others…ARE we really able to RECEIVE FORGIVENESS from CHRIST for OURSELVES…See-Very Tricky!!!)
12. Healing Father/Mother wounds (Yes…that is actually taught in a Church…Having drug and alcohol abuse in my family…this was an AMAZING exercise for me…One of the most beneficial ones.)
13. Inner Healing (This was one of the most detailed conversations I’ve ever had with Father GOD…it went on for about 15-20 minutes…WORDS CAN’T DESCRIBE IT!!!)
14. The Promise Of The SPIRIT
Instead of talking to each section…I will share a couple of the experiences and a few of my “TAKEAWAYS”
First, Thursday Night after our first taste of KAIROS…I slept so well…I mean better than I have in months. I did have a dream that continued to play out all night…over and over. We were told to write things down that we would LEAVE AT THE CROSS for JESUS to carry for us at the end of the third day.
In my dream…just as I was laying my list at the cross…I transformed into a NEW BORN BABY and I was crying over and over in the dream…you know the cry of a NEW BORN-They can wail. This dream continued to play over and over all night.
The next day was Friday October 15, 2010 and I had a full 8 hour day with the Lord. The very first speaker of the day shared his testimony which consisted of a very familiar dream…YEP- you guessed it…he was repeating the same dream back to me that I had the night before. Now granted…there were a few differences…but it was WAY more similar than different. I’m not sure what that means as of now…It could’ve just been confirmation from the LORD that I was about to experience a SPIRITUAL and MENTAL… RE-BIRTH.
That day I had MANY encounters with GOD and I will never forget them. I was experiencing things I never even thought were possible. I mean, crying that comes from somewhere so deep in your body…it makes your body feel about 10 ft deep…And when the crying comes on…there’s NO STOPPING IT…The only way I can describe it is like, when you have an accident and go to the bathroom in your pants…NO MATTER how hard you try to hold it… after awhile…YOU’RE ALL IN!!! Catch my drift? Sorry for the analogy…but even with CHRIST leading me…I’m just as obnoxious as I ever was…but seriously…think about that feeling of NOT HAVING CONTROL…and then apply that feeling to crying…and you will have an idea of how it felt to cry so hard and so deep.
The event ended at 5:00 and I rushed home to eat and get the family ready because we had a LIFE GROUP bible study at 8:00...Yep- more time with the lord. Seriously…that day I spent about 10 hours praying…worshiping and walking with JESUS. All this, from a guy just a few months ago, who had a horrible mouth…was abusing alcohol…and was about as far from Christ as one could be…NOW I could not get enough!!!
Our Bible study went very well and I realized an area in my life that needed some prayer…A LOT of prayer. You know how nerve-racking it is to study the Bible...not knowing a TON about the Bible? Do you know how nerve-racking it is to study the Bible with people that know a TON about the Bible? VERY!!! It didn’t take long for JESUS to reach down and touch me because as soon as we started reading and talking about his word…My nervousness was G.O.N…GONE!!!
That night I didn’t sleep very well at all…I was up all night…In fact, no one slept well in my family. I did however, have another dream. This time it was a little confusing and I’ll be praying that clarity be given to me regarding the dream.
All night long I was dreaming…EPHESIANS 10… EPHESIANS 10… EPHESIANS 10. “This is awesome” I thought as I woke up. The first scripture to be given to me by the LORD…Right? Maybe…I’m still trying to figure it out. You see…Ephesians seems to be one of the shortest books in the bible…there are only 6 chapters and I was dreaming about chapter 10. There was another number that kept showing up in my dream as well…and it was the number 3. If Ephesians 3 was my scripture…It appears that I may become a pastor…LOL…seriously…that was my takeaway from reading it. WOW!!! That would be crazy…If that’s the case…the lord has a TON of work to do on me…
So the next day was Saturday October 16, 2010 and it was the final day of KAIROS. On the way to the event I was thinking about what I was going to eat, because I was starving…Then, something crazy happened. This random thought just popped into my head.
It said, “DON’T EAT.”
“What,” I replied.
“DON’T EAT, “was the thought again.
“WHY,” I Replied.
“DON’T EAT,” was the thought again.
“Okay…let’s see where this goes,” I said to myself.
I love food and this is the first time I can recall “starving myself”. As soon as I walked into the Church, I felt the LORD, and he was asking me not to eat for some type of spiritual reason. I wasn’t sure…but I loved my NEW relationship with my FATHER and I was not about to dis-obey him. I would soon find out that I was in for the most healing experience of the event and of my life.
Without dragging this blog out for another 30 minutes…I’ll just talk at a very high level. Holding the hand of GOD, I discovered some very deep wounds in my soul that were created when I was about 4 or 5 years old. By the GRACE of his love, we replaced those scars with his GUIDING LIGHT. Guiding light you may ask…what’s up with that? I’m not sure…that’s what he chose to replace the scar… NOT ME. I was in the back seat…He was driving that process…I was just a passenger, but it was one of the BEST RIDES OF MY LIFE…by the way- HE’S A GREAT DRIVER…YOU SHOULD TAKE A RIDE WITH HIM SOMETIME!!!
So I did not eat all day on Saturday. I was at church…AGAIN that night and I prayed and asked the LORD if he wanted me to eat or fast…
“FAST,” he replied
I then confirmed it by asking him…
“Father, do you want me to eat… Yes or No?”
“No,” he replied.
I said “OK” and thanked him for his love and guidance…then I went home..Prayed and went to sleep.
I started to wake up around 5 am on Sunday October 17, 2010 and started to pray.
“Father, do I eat or fast,?” I prayed.
“EAT,” he replied.
“Father, do I eat …yes or no?” I prayed.
“YES,” he replied.
Then I went back to sleep and started to dream about the awesome breakfast I would be having in just a few hours…AHHHH, biscuits, scrambled eggs, sausage, and a big glass of cold milk!!! YUMMY!!!
So I finally ate at 9:30 am which means I completed the first FAST in my life and made it 36 hours without one bite of food. This is a huge deal for me…Just check out my Facebook page…My wife and I are serious foodies…I have almost as many pictures of food as I do of my kids.
Looking back, I wished I had not asked him WHY when he told me to fast. Please remember, I did'nt know it was GOD…, however, I’m soooo thankful that I listened. Also, I should have confirmed it with someone else instead of confirming it with the LORD myself…I think that is the process…I’m SO new at this…BUT I love my NEW life.
I think that’s about it for now…but before I shut it down I’d like to thank you for taking the time to read this and ask that you PLEASE share it with anyone you feel would benefit from reading it.
All the best,
SW